Story Behind The Song
In 2010 my 18 month old son Jamie died very suddenly and unexpectedly- it was the toughest thing I have ever been through. In 2018 I released my first album 'Love & Let Go' which is available for free to all bereaved parents and all the proceeds from any sales goes to the Red Nose Australia Charity. Mike Caen helped to produce this beautiful album and add some sweet guitar sounds. This song is the last song on the album, which is a journey through my grief of feeling empty to feeling 'Good Again."
Song Description
This seemed like the perfect place to close my album for bereaved parents "Love & Let Go"; it completes my journey. My album begins at my darkest hour, feeling completely empty handed, and ends up here, where I finally feel good again.
There are a few poignant lyrics in this song, in terms of my own journey. I talk about smiling at a mother and child and lovers walking hand in hand across the beach, which are some strong memories for me. For so long I would only feel the sting of of my son Jamie's absence every time I saw a mother out with her child, or a happy pregnant woman parading her beautiful baby bump. I would look on in envy at couples walking together looking so happy, wishing I could go back to that place, where it seemed like I had the whole world at my fingertips.
It was therefore a very significant moment when I felt myself genuinely smiling at such images as they passed me by. I noticed that the sting had lessened and I was no longer thinking about my own story- I was happy to see their story unfolding. It was at the same time that I started to 'stop and smell the roses' (or frangipani's as it were) more and more. I was feeling a deep sense of gratitude again for my life and I was living more in the moment than I had before. It was a great place to be in and I remember really noticing it for the first time and smiling to myself in disbelief that I could actually be feeling this way again.
I decided to fade out the song at the end, with the piano riff that is heard throughout. My reasoning for this was to create the imagery of the journey continuing on and on. On that note, I want to say that this is not the end of the journey. It's a continual working progress, trudging your way through the grief of losing a child. There are so many ups and downs along the way, but so many unexpected and positive surprises to be found too.
Song Length |
4:42 |
Genre |
Pop - Easy Listening, Folk - General |
Tempo |
Medium Slow (91 - 110) |
Lead Vocal |
Female Vocal |
Mood |
Content |
Subject |
Happiness, Encouragement |
Language |
English |
Era |
2000 and later |
Lyrics
Verse
Sand under my toes, the sun lights the ocean as far as it goes
I feel good, surprisingly good today.
I smile at a mother and child, playing chase on the beach,
and I feel good, surprisingly good today.
Chorus
It's hard to understand, surprising that I could feel this kind of happiness again.
But as lovers hold hands across the sand,
I feel good again, surprisingly good again oh
Verse
I ask the waitress 'How are you?', and I really meant it to,
I feel good, surprisingly good today.
My hair is down and I'm running free, I stop to smell the Frangipani tree,
I feel good, surprisingly good today.
Chorus
Bridge
Aye, yaey, yaey, yaey, yeay, yeah, ooooh, Uuuhhhhhh, ohhhh.
Verse
I'm feeling thankful for having had you, even all the ups and downs that we've been through
I feel good, surprisingly good today.
Cause gratitude lights the way, it gives us hope for a better day,
I feel good, surprisingly good today.
Chorus
Life can feel good again, life can feel good again yeay,
Oh I feel good again, life can feel good again
Pre Outro
Ooh, ooh, ooh
Life can feel good, surprisingly good again.
Who would have thought, life can feel good again.
It just takes some time, but life can feel good again.
Take it from me, life can feel good again
Cause I feel good, surprisingly good again,
Oh I feel good, surprisingly good again yeay,
And life can feel good, life can feel good again
I finally feel good.
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