Story Behind The Song

This song is the first track on my album "Love & Let Go" (free for bereaved parents). It outlines the emptiness I felt as a mother who lost her child.

Song Description

This song is about how I felt right after losing my 18-month old son Jamie; I felt raw and completely empty. It was at a time where I felt I had lost everything- even the chance to argue the fact that I could lose my son... because it was already done. Death is so final, which is what makes it so shocking when you experience it. I plainly state that "I lost my child;" to emphasis the raw state I was in and the shocking nature of it all. I remember having to utter those words for the first time, it was unbelievable. The idea of Emptiness, came to me for many reasons. The first time I visited Jamie at the Morgue was all so surreal and shocking; I had never seen a dead body before. I remember looking at him, and just seeing an empty vessel... it was no longer him anymore. I saw for the first time that the body doesn't make a person... I tried to grasp what it is that gives life to the body? I felt empty inside- like there was nothing left and like my cup could never again be filled. Returning to our family home for the first time was an experience I will never forget. I walked in and could still smell Jamie. Everything was as we left it; the last clothes he ever wore were in the dirty clothes bin, his cot sheets spread, baby bowl and spoon in the sink, toys and books spread out on the carpet. It was gut-wrenching- and never before have I ever felt such emptiness in my heart and soul.

Song Length 5:33 Genre Folk - General, Pop - Easy Listening
Tempo Slow (71 - 90) Lead Vocal Female Vocal
Mood Heartbreaking, Moving Subject Sadness, Numbness
Language English Era 2000 and later


I lost my heart I lost my soul, I lost my mind I lost control,
I lost the chance to watch you grow old.
I lost the time to put up a fight, I lost the will to survive,
I lost my child.

And now emptiness is what's left, only emptiness is what's left.
In my heart in my soul, in your lifeless eyes and in my home.
It's only emptiness that's left.

I look to the sky asking why, teeth are clenched my mouth is dry.
Why, oh why, was I left behind?
Cause my heart was full of love for you, my eyes full of joy and gratitude,
So why, did I have to lose you?


And I would walk a thousand miles, just to see your smile one last time,
just to see the life in your eyes, reflect in mine.
And I would fight the desert storm, just to hold you tight and feel your warmth,
just to wake up and see you in the morning, one last time,
because you filled my life, will you fill my life again!

Because emptiness is what's left, so much emptiness is what's left.
In my heart in my soul, in your lifeless eyes and in my home.
It's only emptiness that's left.

Emptiness is what's left, only emptiness is what's left.
In my heart in my soul, in your lifeless eyes, and in my home.
Only emptiness.

Lyrics Jenny McGregor Music Jenny McGregor
Producer Mike Caen Performance Jenny McGregor & Mike Caen
This track is on 9 Member Playlists
Playlist Creator Playlist Name Date Added
Thierry Coupey Great instrumentals 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey Beautiful Dreamscapes 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey Music Theory Pros 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey I am a fan 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey Special crafts 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey Speaking to me 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey Outstanding lyrics 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey My Top Songs 11/13/2020
Thierry Coupey So much heartfelt 11/13/2020

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