Story Behind The Song

This song was penned at an absolute low point in my life -- in every area of my existence, I wasn't where I wanted to be. Although I knew I had all the potential in the world, I was stagnant. For months, I let it build and build to the point where I told my brother "I feel like I need to go into the middle of a field and just explode ... I'm not sure if it will be laughter or tears but I just feel the need to explode." In the end, I wrote a song about battling the inner demons of bottled up angst and ultimately uncorking the bottle in celebration of the new-found spiritual liberty.

Song Description

A song about confronting an internal struggle, personal angst, inner demons and bottled up negative energy to the point where something has to give. In the end, the singer makes a decision to rise above the issue in an explosion of optimistic emotion.

Lyrics

What have I been doing?
What good could come from keeping it in?
I'm terrified of losing
But fighting wars a could never win.
I watch the seasons turn it over-
I watch the reasons change over and over
To different words-
But what's between the lines don't change.

I have seen my demons.
I have seen their faces- I've seen their eyes.
They are things I should be leaving
But in that mirror I see they're still mine.
I watch the seasons turn it over-
I watch the reasons change over and over
A different day
But the same old suffocate.

So, I feel to lighten up my load, I should explode.

I am far from empty
Cause what you don't let go is bound to build up
Or take you down a piece by piece-
Man, I'm in desperate need of your love.
In my bones I'm feeling older-
This war time has changed me-
I'm no doubt colder
And I will freeze here long before I burn.

So, I feel to lighten up my load,
I should open up and let the insides show
And explode.

Playlist Creator	Playlist Name	Date Added
Nick Fuse	Like Minds	1/12/2012