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You can't call me a saint
Watch out for your feelings
I'm just willing to paint
Your idea of an existence
Back home I'd lock my door
And cry to myself to sleep
I'd lie to myself
I'll be just fine

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< Confining myself
It's a long downward spiral I know
The wave of this pain
Pushes me further down the slope
I think I've lose all hope
In this downward spiral>>

I can't take it anymore
I'm falling so fast
Try to stop myself
I wonder how long will this last
Memories of then, send me down
Confound by your vise of wickedness
I have been ripped off
I pray time will soften the blow
But this is how it goes

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I would love to slash my wrist
When I have my fits
Just to feel me bleed
To know I'm alive I can thrive
No delusion in pain but intrusive
I've been captured by these years of self torture
I need to let go
But he shattered all that really mattered
How can this leave me be
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