Story Behind The Song

What I've Become is based on a dream that Ryan had where he found himself ready to die but felt that he couldn't justify his reasons well enough to the people he loved. The dream is centered around the before and after of suicide.

Song Description

Lost love caused by mistakes...

Lyrics

One day I decided I?m not breathing
I told them all that I figured out that I don?t
have to live like they do
I told them all that in a moment I might take
my own life? ?I don?t know why.?
Oh, then I see your face, it disappeared and
reappeared without a trace

Chorus
What I?ve Become, is anything
I?m not scared to catch up with myself
But if I?m that wrong,
I know I?d be gone
God knows that I should?ve said...

I lost control I lost all sense and reason for
you
I couldn?t help but question why I brought the
meaning down on myself this time
In a crystal blue sky just disappeared I
wondered if I could hang on
It?s as meaningless as these words that I
brought you...I swear I?ll be gone

Chorus
All of these words, don?t mean a thing
All she wants is to laugh out loud
But if I?m that wrong,
I know I?d be gone
God knows I should?ve said all that I?ve
become
But I LOVE you still
I didn?t mean to thrill
But if I just stood outside all these wills
Of a thousand things
That could make her scream
And if I could hold her now?

Bridge
And if you would only come back now, I know
I could have changed it
And if you would only laugh out loud, I know I
could have changed you

Chorus
What I?ve Become, is anything
And I don?t lie
I said, ?I don?t lie!?
But if I?m that wrong,
I know I?d be gone
God knows I should?ve said all that I?ve
become
But I LOVE you still
I didn?t mean to thrill
But if I just stood outside all these wills
Of a thousand things
That could make her scream
And if I could hold her now?
I know that I?d be alive
I?d love to try!
But if all these lies come screaming
I might want to die
If I could try
I might light her fire
And if I could hold her now?