Story Behind The Song

I've been going through serious health issues over the past few years. 11 surgeries, a non-curable recurring cancer, 4 months of chemo, and a lot of being miserable. I struggled with my faith during this time. That's when I wrote shattered.

Song Description

I was angry at God after my cancer diagnosis. I stopped going to church for awhile. But that is when I needed my faith, my community the most. It was only when I let God into my heart that I could hear him, and feel him, and let him help me through my suffering

Lyrics

Shattered
(music & lyrics written by Carolyn J Messina)

I wish I'd seen it coming, cause it came way too fast
And all that's left are questions that I never asked
I'm standing at Your door, but I can't step inside
Until I know my fear and anger won't collide

The weight is getting heavy. It's getting hard to breathe
What more do You want from me? What more do You need?
I got a lot of questions. I'm not sure what to do
I'm breaking down searching for the breakthrough?

When everything falls apart. It's all scattered on the floor
I just can't help but wonder what I'm here for
When shattered moments bring me to my knees
Will they bring You close to me. Bring You close to me

They say that You won't give me more than I can bear
But there's growing disappointment with each unanswered prayer
I'm not a patient person. I hope You have a plan
Cause lately I can't even find the strength to stand

When everything falls apart. It's all scattered on the floor
I just can't help but wonder what I'm here for
When shattered moments bring me to my knees
Will they bring You close to me. Bring You close to me

Rest in me .Rest in me. You say Come and rest in me......
Rest in me. Rest in me. You say Come and rest in me...

Cause When everything falls apart. It's all scattered on the floor
Then my God whispers "this is what I'm here for
When shattered moments bring you to your knees
They bring you close to Me. They bring you close to Me"