Douglas Amell

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The desperation of trying to hold onto love.

I still need you by my side.
It kills me when you run and hide.
Life's now something I can bear,
So long as I can know you're there.

Please don't ever leave,
You're the air that lets me breathe
When you're lying by my side
I know I've lived enough to die.

When your silence shuts me out,
And leaves me drowning in self-doubt,
Shadows start to fill the room,
Threatening to become my tomb.

Please don't ever leave,
You're the air that lets me breathe
When you're lying by my side
I know I've lived enough to die.

You say you can't bear this,
What was once bliss,
Now breaks your heart,
I know that if you leave me,
I'll be completely torn apart.

Please don't ever leave,
You're the air that lets me breathe
When you're lying by my side
I know I've lived enough to die.

I still need you by my side.
It kills me when you run and hide.

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1,996

No matter how bad things seem, at some point something good is always bound to happen.

When the darkness surrounds you,
And your dreams, they seem forever gone,
When your stars have lost their brightness,
And every day, you fight to just belong.


Relax, just breathe, And soon you'll see


The clouds in time will drift away.
The sun will shine another day.
The sun will shine another day.


When the rain is pouring down,
with no shelter found anywhere
When storms come from all directions,
You search for help but there's no one there


Just raise your eyes up to the skies


The clouds in time will drift away
The sun will shine another day
The sun will shine another day


Life will always stop to pick you up whenever you have fallen down.
So take the hand it offers to you,
Let yourself be carried up to higher ground

The clouds in time will drift away
The sun will shine another day
The sun will shine another day

1,213

Even through life's events often pulling us apart and bringing us back together again, some things are destined to be.

Nathaniel Jones created a beautiful soundbed, over which Wes Dinwiddie added varied guitar parts, and I created a vocal melody and lyrics. This is the final culmination of this process.

Something familiar, beckons me closer
The years of push and pull,
Leave me immobilized.

When you're not with me, I feel your presence,
In every gentle breeze, keeping me mesmerized.

I will always
Love you even through
Times when when we fight and you're cursing my name,
til the fury subsides and then everything's better again.

Everything's better again.
We were meant to be. You're my destiny.

Whispered reminders cradle me gently,
All the dreams you've shared, unwitting truths and lies.

Nothing that's happened, could keep me away from you,
Our souls are intertwined, I hope that you realize,

I will always
Love you even through
Times when when we fight and you're cursing my name,
til the fury subsides and then everything's better again.

Everything's better again.
We were meant to be. You're my destiny.

I will always
Love you even through
Times when when we fight and you're cursing my name,
til the fury subsides and then everything's better again.

Everything's better again.
We were meant to be. You're my destiny.

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1,010

Indie-rock song depicting the life of a spy, or someone that needs to keep secrets for the sake of their existence.

If I open wide to let you look inside,
Then I'd spill the moments I've contained in every cell,
So I'll keep the door shut tight.

The burden that I carry deep within my soul,
Is the island that I've come to call my home.
And i can't let you inside to see the pain I feel.
It's the only thing I truly call my own.
It's my own.

Don't look in my eyes for anything but lies,
Any truth's been hidden and covered with denial,
So it can't be recognized.

The burden that I carry deep within my soul,
Is the island that I've come to call my home.
And i can't let you inside to see the pain I feel.
It's the only thing I truly call my own.
It's my own.

The burden that I carry deep within my soul,
Is the island that I've come to call my home.
And i can't let you inside to see the pain I feel.
It's the only thing I truly call my own.
It's my own.

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Built for a spy film, this incredible cinematic remix was done by Nathaniel Jones.

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This is the vocal melody and lyrics that I added to Nathaniel's soundbeds and Wes' guitars.

Simple phrases whispered in my ear,
Cloak me as I leave this atmosphere.

I still need to know that you'll be waiting on my ordained return,
And to feel how all the smouldering embers in your heart still burn,
Once more. Once more.

I would gather Saturn's rings for you.
I can see you in their icy hue.

I've lost hope that I will ever see you in the flesh again.
I just need to feel your silky breath against my hardened skin,
Once more. Once more

All the moments that we spent together, flicker before my eyes.
An eternity of ancient memories all start to crystallize,
Once more. Once more.

1,852

featuring Nathan Nasby

A peak into the loving marriage I share with my wife.

She tells me everything I do is completely wrong, but still l love her.
And when I tell her how she still revs up my heart, she only laughs at me.
She's all that I think about, her smile can bring me to my knees,

She's not a woman who'll declare her love out loud, but she'd do anything for me.
I might not understand what she's so stressed about, but I'd give her anything she needs.
Anything she wants, everything she needs,
I'll give her anything

I rarely finish all the things I'm asked to do, but still she loves me.
She'll still catch me staring, every time she's fixing up her hair.
The thought of a life without her fills me with despair.

She's not a woman who'll declare her love out loud, but she'd do anything for me.
I might not understand what she's so stressed about, but I'd give her anything she needs.
Anything she wants, everything she needs,
I'll give her anything.

I could give her fresh cut roses every day but they'd be lost on her,
And diamonds aren't her thing 'cause she's more than content,
Just as long as I'm...standing there... by her side.

To wake up to her each morning, is the reason that I breathe

She's not a woman who'll declare her love out loud, but she'll do anything for me.
I might not understand what she's so stressed about,
but I'll do anything, and I'll say anything, and I'll give her anything she needs.

1,603

To be awestruck at the good fortune of finding the right love connection.

How falling in love with the right person can change our whole perspective on life.

I was only,
Feeling lonely,
But you made me see that there was more,
to life than trying to find
A one-night stand to ease my mind



I just can't believe the way you've opened up the world for me.
I was locked in a jail of misery,
I can't believe how your love has set me free.
I can't believe, I can't believe
My past is a distant memory,
You've shown me how my life was meant to be.



I could never,
Hope to ever,
Understand how fate could bring you here,
Inside my loving arms,
To keep you safe from any harm.


I just can't believe the way you've opened up the world for me.
I was locked in a jail of misery,
I can't believe how your love has set me free.
I can't believe, I can't believe
My past is a distant memory,
You've shown me how my life was meant to be.


This is my time, and my light is shining
I'll never look back again,
'cause all my stars are now aligning.


I just can't believe the way you've opened up the world for me.
I was locked in a jail of misery,
I can't believe how your love has set me free.
I can't believe, I can't believe
My past is a distant memory,
You've shown me how my life was meant to be.

2,038

This song is about personal transparency - Shedding the shackles of conformity to truly feel free to express who we are deep inside.

Just to feel like I'm alive,
I stand outside beneath the acid rain.
It coats my body and my mind,
And numbs the conscience that would keep me sane.

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Rain on me,
Bring it down.
I can take it,
I won't drown.
I feel alive, I feel alive when I'm in pain.
I'm alright, but not the same.
I feel alive.

In the darkness of the night,
I'll strip my body raw, exposing what's inside.
It doesn't matter what you think.
I need to feel that sacred rush that keeps me high.

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I can't keep hiding under pleasantries and proper thoughts.
I need to open wide and let the whole world know what lies within.

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Genius is often not recognized at first, but instead vilified until the collective unconscious evolves to finally recognize it for what it truly is.

You see colors few can see,
And your eidetic memory
Makes every detail sear your core,
Scenes of love and fields of war


And all the things they thought were true,
Will be dis-proven by the few
Who aren't afraid to see the world the way you do.
You're a visionary, don't let them bury you beneath their shroud of madness.


The prophetic words you speak,
Will go unheeded by the sheep,
So hypnotized by media chaff
That they let speak on their behalf.


And all the things they thought were true,
Will be dis-proven by the few
Who aren't afraid to see the world the way you do.
You're a visionary, don't let them bury you beneath their shroud of madness.


Once the lies have all but ceased,
And the truth has been released,
They'll see how great you truly were,
But til then just play the game
"cause they'll be honoring your name
The day your wisdom's finally heard.


All the things they thought were true,
Will be dis-proven by the few
Who aren't afraid to see the world the way you do.
You're a visionary, don't let them bury you beneath their shroud of madness.

All the things they thought were true,
Will be dis-proven by the few
Who aren't afraid to see the world the way you do.
You're a visionary, don't let them bury you beneath their shroud of madness.

1,153

A vignette of how two people can stay in a loveless marriage simply for the comfort, and due to the fact that neither one has the courage to move on. And so a quiet undercurrent of desperation exists.

I noticed this couple in a restaurant and they sat and ate across from each other without ever saying a word.

She remembers how it used to be,
The way he'd look into her eyes,
How he'd hang on every word she'd say,
But now she chokes on muffled cries.

She knows that there's something wrong,
The way he never meets her gaze.
But if she tries to bring the matter up,
She knows he'll only run away.

He can never find the words to say,
And so he hides in the mundane.
A quiet desperation rules his mind,
And his indifference keeps him sane.

She knows that there's something wrong,
The way he never meets her gaze.
But if she tries to bring the matter up,
She knows he'll only run away.

They once shared dreams about their life,
And how she'd always be his wife,
Until their bodies turned to dust.
They used to share a sacred trust.
He suffocates beneath her stare,
While she accepts he'll never care,
So many words they'll never say,
But they keep going on this way.

She knows that there's something wrong,
The way he never meets her gaze.
But if she tries to bring the matter up,
She knows he'll only run away.

She knows that there's something wrong,
The way he never meets her gaze.
But if she tries to bring the matter up,
She knows he'll only run away.

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I can see your body heaving out there on the dance-floor.
And then you close your eyes and sway, and it makes me want you more.
The way you move your hips, and lick your ruby lips,
Heats me to my core.

I can't tell you how I feel, but my body knows the language that my soul speaks.
My moves are its vocabulary.
Come dance with me.

I feel like I'm a million bucks and there's nothing I can't do,
I shake my money-maker 'cause it brings in the revenue,
Can you feel my hungry gaze, and does it even faze you,
'Cause I don't have a clue,

I can't tell you how I feel, but my body knows the language that my soul speaks.
My moves are its vocabulary.
Come dance with me.

The rhythm shows me where to go, whenever life's too hard
Like a beacon in the night, it guides me through the dark.
So let me take you in my arms tonight,
We'll dance until the sun comes up and revel in the brilliance of its light.

Come dance with me.

I can't tell you how I feel, but my body knows the language that my soul speaks.
My moves are its vocabulary.
Come dance with me.

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This song describes that helpless feeling we get when someone breaks up with us without any notice of the rug being pulled out from underneath.

I walk the streets alone at night,
To help release all the feelings inside,
So I can scream with no one around,
Fall to my knees and smother the sound.

How could I miss the feelings you had,
Too self-absorbed to notice things were so bad,
I'm still in shock, I can't sleep at night,
So I just walk til the morning brings light.

I - I can't catch my breath.
I - I'm scared to death
What do I do?
What do I do?

You gave no signs before you left,
I never sensed that you were even upset,
And all this time I thought we would be
Together for an eternity.

My future dreams were tied up in you,
Now that you're gone, I don't know what to do,
You disappeared without a goodbye,
It feels so wrong that you won't be part of my life.

I - I can't catch my breath.
I - I'm scared to death
What do I do?
What do I do?

I hyperventilate when I start to think,
About the parts of me that walked away with you.
My open heart lies bleeding, will it ever stop,
You were the only one it ever knew.
What do I do?

I - I can't catch my breath.
I - I'm scared to death
What do I do?
What do I do?

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How the simple memory of a loved one lost to us can still have the power to embrace us and keep us warm.

I wanted to address the bitterweet aspect of losing someone in your life and not being able to move on. While there is a sadness in not being able to move on, there can also be an all-too-sweet comfort in periods of marinating in their memory that allows us to still function in life.

I close my eyes and try to hide inside the memories of what we had,
Before you made the choice that you would leave this world,
Pieces of a puzzle that lie scattered on a cold and distant landscape.
And the visions of you keep me warm,
When my body starts to shake.

(chorus)
Oh, I'm addicted to your memory,
Happiness encapsulated,
Oh, and I'll never let it go,
Even when it's old and faded.
Oh, I've so many things I want to say
Though you will never hear me.
Oh, but I'll say them anyway.

Dancing 'round in circles on the sidewalk all alone beneath the pouring rain,
Soaked to the bone but I'm not chilled because you're glowing in my heart.
There may never be another moment when I feel your skin against my chest,
But please don't think that I could ever put the love we shared to rest.

Oh, I'm addicted to your memory,
Happiness encapsulated,
Oh, and I'll never let it go,
Even when it's old and faded.
Oh, I've so many things I want to say,
Though you may never hear me.
Oh, but I'll say them anyway.

I'll see you in a stranger's eyes,
And feel you in a summer breeze
Your spirit's always there to hold me
When I'm brought down to my knees.

Oh, I'm addicted to your memory,
Happiness encapsulated,
Oh, and I'll never let it go,
Even when it's old and faded.
Oh, I've so many things I want to say,
Though you will never hear me.
Oh, but I'll say them anyway.
Oh, I'll say them anyway.

1,440

Being in love with someone who is wrong for you, and pushing headlong regardless.

People tell me I should never fall in love with you,
But I could never see it from their point of view,
Everything you say is a melody that makes me want to break out into harmony

(chorus)
I-I should never fall in love,
Should never fall in love.
I-I should never fall in love,
Should never fall in love.

They say you'll spit me out once you are finally done with me,
They tell me all the signs are there, but I'm too blind to see.
I don't want to wait to see what's true,
I just want to spend my life in love with you.

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I've been burned before from rushing into things too fast,
You'd think I'd learned this lesson from my past,
But I don't care.

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Dedicated to people who have to compete all the time (from younger brothers trying to compete with older brothers to athletes), and the killer instinct and sense of perseverance required to be successful.

Watching reality shows where people had to compete all the time, it got me to thinking about how a strong ego (while causing us problems in other areas)is so important as we constantly strive to be the best.

I look back to see you closing in, the distance shrinking
You'd love to leave me in your dust, and get me thinking,
I'll never have what it takes, to be your equal,
But you couldn't be more wrong, you couldn't, you couldn't.

(chorus)
Make no mistake, I'll do what it takes,
To keep ahead of you.
You can try all you want, I'll stay nonchalant
As I keep ahead of you.

You get close to look me in the eye, to keep me wary,
I see behind the games you play, they don't scare me.
You underestimate the fire I have inside me.
So you shouldn't feel so sure, you shouldn't, you shouldn't.

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The days when you'd berate me,
And humiliate me,
Are only distant memories,
And never coming back
Don't try to impede me,
I won't let you exceed me,
You're never gonna beat me,
Accept that as a fact

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(I'm on fire, nothing's gonna slow me,
There ain't nothing you could ever show me,
To make me think I shouldn't be ahead of you.
You can't catch me, nothing's gonna stop me,
Just sit down, you might as well watch me,
I'm forever gonna be ahead of you.)

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How hard it can be to bite our tongue when faced daily with the injustices of our modern world.

chorus)
I have to keep the silence 'cause I don't know what I might say.
So I'll conceal this violence, and try to find another way.

I cannot face the human race,
the way it moves along ignoring what's not right,
Believing lies, ignoring cries,
It lives in ignorance with eyes shut tight.

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To feel alive, I climb inside the world I dream about whenever I'm in need.
I know it's wrong to spend that long somewhere that I know I'm never meant to be.

I'm overwhelmed by how the world's messed up,
So powerless but I can't keep hiding.

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