Lyrics

Scattered in my notebooks
Lying on the shelf and on the floor
Are dreams and thoughts of love and anger and confusion
Silence is all that comes from me these days
And each tear falls one at a time
I am not utterly hopeless
But far from better
Far from healing

I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
And have another good time
I will not tell a lie, Yeah Right!
I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
I will not tell a lie
I will not say anything

It would be so easy just to let you go
So I can blame myself for everything
It would be all the inspiration that I would ever need
There would be no chance to ever grow
Except for scared and dead and cold

I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
And have another good time
I will not tell a lie, Yeah Right!
I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
I will not tell a lie
I will not say anything

You'd be everything I need if you could just watch them put me into the ground
And mourn for me forever
Just another broken candle
With flames falling to the side
Into all the tears that I will never cry

I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
And have another good time
I will not tell a lie, Yeah Right!
I don't wanna deal
So I push it back inside
I will not tell a lie
I will not say anything