Song Description

Brooding lament of an obsessive lover coming to terms with their affliction.

Lyrics

The pain of twisted narcisitic abhorence for failure Breathes a sigh, a cold fruition of my ways Among these facile misconceptions, thirsts for rapturous delight Dulcet tones, trivial words, and warm displays And here I dwell in dark recesses, in this brooding state enslaved, Begrudging innocence from my decrepit cell. Lure the detriment within, entice vexation, tempt denial And spurn the fleeting peace of mind I knew so well And no, reflection never counts for nothing. But my analytic mind won't let me be. And I'd do anything to hold you while you're sleeping When I'm with you all these fears I've fashioned fade away When I'm with you everything is so much clearer When I'm with you the nights hold no more shadow than the day When I'm with you Can I consume a clearer state amid this pall of clouded senses, Literarily extract the vestal seed And exorcise these fiendish lesions, fraternize a lucid space Revere the face of simple grace and not the deed. And I know reflection never counts for nothing But my analytic mind won't set me free. And I'd die for you to hold me while I'm sleeping I'd pushed dependence away, I'd found control I was the eye of conviction, I was whole Moulting fears of rejection, my hands grew still Set my sights on direction and aspired to will Woeful thoughts left behind me, a stayed disdain I buried cold dereliction, I could feel again Watched my apathy crumble like a friend betrayed Exiled penance forever, I'd never fade. I'd washed pretense from mentation, I'd found my door I'd rid myself of confusion, suffered doubt no more And at the road's intersection, with my head held high I bred my own resurection, bid myself goodbye I shed morose lamentations for discarded skin Childhood dreams of perfection, of finding peace within And as these petty delusions slipped from sight and mind I found myself quite contented. But you drove for miles to spend one night then home again. You whispered in my ear. Forever danced upon your lips, your fingers nestled in my hair. Your thighs and eyes my drowning fate as I immersed myself within The sweet perfection of your gaze, the warm affection of your skin. She played when all had slipped away, pursued before she saw the flame. She waited patiently for me when no one else would do the same. She mourned at every parting word and brushed afflicted fears aside. She took my soul into her keeping. I'll miss her for all she gave to me I'll feel her and all she helped me see I'll miss her, but I'm living strange I loved her, but things change