Lyrics

DEATH OF A MECHANIC

(Kel Sanders)
© 2005 Kitchen Songs

There's a gathering of people out under the plaza
A roar of commotion as loud as your beat-up Mazda
But you take no notice of the gathering crowd
Your thoughts as intense as the screaming was loud
And I'll never forget that day and what it meant
After years of forgiveness, I'm finally spent
I start checking the caller ID of my phone
I can't bring myself to call back, I just talk to the tone

As I write down my thoughts on this cold night, the ink from
My pen leaks like a sieve
And all that I want is for you not to love me
That's all that I'm willing to give

There's a small child laughing at everyone's misery
I don't think you understand quite what that meant to me
The innocence of childhood has long since worn thin
Just one more occurrence in this giant contradiction
Why can't you just open your eyes and enjoy
The beauty of life as seen from a small boy?
He's years away from knowing there's a world out there
But he doesn't have any reason he should care

If only I could go back then, I would love to
Remember what it's like to live
But all that I want is for you not to love me
That's all that I'm willing to give

I can't tell you
I can't bring myself
To show you
How this has made me feel
I can't help you
I can't hold you
I can only prove to myself
That I know what is real

It's 5 to 4:30, you're practically late
Just like you've been ever since our first date
As time passes on, I see you're not coming
My feet hit the ground, but my mind does the running

I've grown introverted and a bit antisocial
And worst of all, contemplative
'Cause all that I want is for you not to love me
That?s all that I'm willing to give

'Cause all that I want is for you not to love me
That?s all that I'm willing to give