Lyrics

I sit up at night late, thinking about the times I've had
and the days that I've lived, good times and bad
I wonder what I do it all for
I wonder if I shouldn't be lying dead on the floor
I listen for the howl of the wind
I listen for the sound in my brain waiting for the pain to begin again
and can you tell me what it all means, can you tell me that I need to be living the life I lead?
I wonder if I can continue to keep up the game
I wonder if I can erase the evil in my brain
I wonder if the lies are all true, I wonder if the truth is lying, can I really believe in you?
So tell me are the visions that I'm seeing really real
And can I up and forget all the feelings that I feel
I wonder if you even know the truth
You know I wonder and I know you wonder too.

I wonder
Can you help me can you tell me?
I wonder
Is this really my reality?
I wonder
Is this really all I got
I wonder
Or wishing that I just forgot

Sometimes everything in my brain swirls around
and all the thoughts just turn to sound
But I can't understand what I'm hearing and I know I fear it
because I don't understand what it means I'm nearing
the end of my rope
wishing that I choke some times but instead what I do is put my thoughts into rhymes
and try to hide what I'm feeling, keep my image hard
but what I really want is a shoulder to lean on
I keep on pushing though I reach my limit
and I keep fronting just in case someone wants to get near it
My tears burn like acid on my fleshy cheeks my heart bursts and the blood runs into the street
Take a listen to the lyrics maybe feel my pain
Sympathize with a man totally insane
The mysteries of the world won't ever be solved
I wonder if my pain will ever resolve

I wonder
Can you help me can you tell me?
I wonder
Is this really my reality?
I wonder
Is this really all I got
I wonder
Or wishing that I just forgot

I got a lot of thoughts telling me to kill somebody
I got a lot of wrongs listed in my inventory
And all I really want in life is answers to all the questions
A little bit of clarity because I missed the lessons
Guess this sh-t has got me where I am today
Living do or die just ain't no way to stay safe
I need a place where nobody else can tell me to be
the way that everybody else is because it makes me violently
muderous enough to slash the sh-t out some necks
Watch the knife and the floor make contact right through your chest
Now I wonder if they're going to catch me for my crime
Guess I really don't have the time to sit and wonder

I wonder
Can you help me can you tell me?
I wonder
Is this really my reality?
I wonder
Is this really all I got
I wonder
Or wishing that I just forgot