Story Behind The Song

You'll never guess this from my "descriptions" but I was actually in a relationship that lasted way too long. One morning, after everything has ended, I was on the subway headed to work... trying to make sense of everything that had happened, wondering how I let it get so out of control. Then the lyric hit me - "Lying naked with a memory" - I imagined the last time I was in bed with him and how I rolled over to look at him, hoping for a miraculous solution to all of our problems. The part about "faking it" was written because he really pissed me off.

Song Description

"I stare at my choices, while the voices I hear just remind that I've wasted a year." Everyone at one time or another has tried to hold onto a relationship that was great at one time, but then slowly turned into complete crap. That's what this song is about. It's about the last straw. It's about being in love with a memory instead of waking up and seeing the person laying next to you for who they really are. Accept it - stop whining about it - just end it.

Lyrics

Here I lay unfulfilled
Just like every other morning with you
Clutching my windowsill
Feeling desperate just to hear something new

But i'm aftraid to give in
Sick and tired of fighting
And I have to admit
That your comfort's inviting
Till I roll, roll over and I

Stare at my choices
While the voices I hear
Just remind me that I've wasted a year
I'll always try to look back
But the fact is I'm here
Hogging covers from reality
Lying naked with a memory

So I give but don't take
Trying hard to make some magic appear
Then I scream and I fake
But you didn't even bother to hear

Now it seems that I've lost
All the games you've been playing
And I know I should leave
But I think that I'm staying
Till I roll, roll over and I

Stare at my choices
While the voices I hear
Just remind me that I've wasted a year
I'll always try to look back
But the fact is I'm here
Hogging covers from reality
Lying naked with a memory

Now we could try to hold on
Maybe work a little harder
We could try to be strong
Make it last a little longer
But the truth will remain
And we'll strain
To probably end up back here
In a year

Till I roll, roll over
Till I roll, roll over
Till I roll, roll over
Till I roll, roll.... and I

Stare at my choices
While the voices I hear
Just remind me that I've wasted a year
I'll always try to look back
But the fact is I'm here
Hogging covers from reality
Lying naked with a memory