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Find myself risking my schedule,
jeopardizing my sleep time..
trickle into work time
Jotting down thoughts that
often run through my mind
Thoughts that
Thoughts that take away sleep

Inside of me, there is a soul to feed
Ignoring these thoughts only fuels my anxiety
Here's the tea, this is me

Sure you've realized you are
talking to an old soul
Can't even joke anymore
Feels like the last two years
Have really grown so much, yo...
Crash course to me
Heavy feeling in my gut
Can't explain how, but I
am sure that I have
been here before

Went through a lot
Bet your ass I cried a lot, but learned a lot
Would never take it back
Really think back to that
Now I know God has got my back
In life, surrounded by people
who would for me go to bat

When needed, swear my people never fall flat
Every day I thank God for that
Please shower my people
with blessings, STAT

Got so much to say
Maybe it's a gift
The way I express myself with ease
Naturally, like pollen that attracts bees
Words flow rapidly
Really, they pour out on their own
Not really tryin'
Hands on my keyboard
Can't really say I'm the one driving

I choke on the words of
what is a message
A message unknown to me
While at the same time
I know it is meant to flow through me
My body, a vessel filled
with truths to divulge,
Perhaps key hints to
realities to unfold, I don't know
Just as confused as the journey
my words make one who listens
to me undergo...
Hope I come off sane though
Really don't feel like I'm insane,
Also realize it may seem that way
Don't really know what to say
Trying hard for my days
and time in this life
To be well spent

If I knew what to do
I would not mess with clues
I'd come out direct!

I hope you see me, understand me
I'm trying my best to explain
the way my brain works, how it goes
How words out of me flow
My worst fear, to choke
when it matters most
I pray that I don't.

Sure you've realized you are
talking to an old soul
Some things I know 'cause I know
Really sometimes want to go
Know there's so much that's in store
Out of this life, I want more
Know I have so much
to grow

Sure you've realized you are
talking to an old soul
Where did these last years go?
Life for me never feels slow
Wish to enjoy my life
with feelings of joy
Want to enjoy growing old
Feel this deeply in my core
Pray that... God's plan is to
make that so.