Story Behind The Song

expressing my frustration

Song Description

I write, it's my world. nice and comfy......but this social stuff is such a rabbit hole.... there's a wall, I can't see, can't feel..

Lyrics

If i needed brain surgery, would I do it myself?
Of course not, I'd want the best,
I surely wouldn't leave it to a newbee.... (that would be me)
It ain't brain surgery, stiil need to be , heads above the rest

So, I'm out, the search is on, i'll have to pay to play
I'll share my dreams, you'll get a piece of the pie
I'm big on dreams, short on cash, so why not give it a try
You are beyond the wall, doing what you do best

I've come to this point, a few other times in the past,
Beyond the guard rails, the borders of my world
Of my own abilities, and all of my degrees and obtained skills
ADDHD,..... A,D,A,D,...... A,D,D,A ......or what ever!

Going thru a valley , but in the same direction
I've hit a brick wall, my intelligence need some instruction
What does this mean?, ........(what does that mean?)
I'm spinning my wheels, Hell, what box do I check?
(8 bar acoustic guitar solo)
The way I see it, if I continue this path,..... the wall, and all
It sums up to be total failure, it's beyond me, a really big fail
It's not the fault of the system, cliche' heads up,( it is, what it is)
Only One actionable option left , step up to the plate, pay to play

The captain of the ship, don't work in the engine room
He wouldn't know how to. that's why he has a crew
I've come to this point, and a few other times way in the past
It's The wall, I can't see it, I can feel it, that's why I need a crew

I don't know how, ......to do what I need to do
A fuse has been lit, I think my brain's exploding
I can see the destination, just over the hill
Need to get a crew, that can do what I can't do.....
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