Story Behind The Song

Song is about loss of a love one.

Song Description

Song is about longing.

Lyrics

[Chorus: Nick Ray]
This time I've been alone
They don't really understand me
That's alright
Take a walk down that avenue
Looking for some reason
I'm alive
Yea, I'm alive

[Verse 1: LOC]
Yea
That day in November
Remember there was something different
About the way the world turned
It was like the planet shifted
Underneath my feet
I could feel my feet lifted
On a level of intense emptiness and a place I've yet to experience
Since that day you left me here with it
And I've been trying to deal with this on my own
But the self-destruction and abuse that comes with losing someone close to you
Has been dragging me down to a place that I do not belong
And I know giving up isn't the way to go out
But I really don't feel that strong
It seems so much easier to drown myself and sorrows in alcohol
Than deal with this
Emptiness
A place that won't let me forget
And I'm struggling with my lack of sleep
It's like a bad dream on constant repeat
And I miss you so, it's been too long
Felt your presence when I wrote that song
And I'm still searching for a trace of the place that you have gone
I am...lost

[Chorus: Nick Ray]
This time I've been alone
They don't really understand me
That's all right
Take a walk down that avenue
Looking for some reason
I'm alive
Yea, I'm alive

[Verse 2: LOC]
Yea
Now that you're missin'
All I listen to is
The walls and they whisper
I see this problem getting deeper
But I don't really want to be this low
And I don't see any other place I can go
But I've tried every outlet that I know
And it seems likes an endless piece of my life that I can never control
And I haven't really cared about anyone else
Or myself or my welfare
And I know they say he is probably in a better place
Where ever he is up there
But they really have no earthly idea
What it meant to a 14-year-old kid
And I know they tryin' to help out
But it's not the support I need to hear
I just need to be...me again
And break out this shell
And reveal my skin
But it takes a whole lot of hard work from the inside out to get what I'm battlin'
And I'm all torn up inside
I can't remembered the last time I cried
And I thought that this would pass, but years keep coming and
Years keep flying by
And it's still right there
Every time I think of you
I can't help but stare
Into an open space
With a blank expression, across my face
Just hoping there's another day that I can spend with you
Break away from this institute
But I'm so caught up with finding myself
When I stop to look
I never look for you

[Chorus: Nick Ray]
This time I've been alone
They don't really understand me
That's all right
Take a walk down that avenue
Looking for some reason
I'm alive
Yea, I'm alive

[Outro: Nick Ray]
Yea I'm alive
Yea I'm alive
Yea I'm alive
Yea I'm alive