Story Behind The Song

the song has been written over a period of years. it describes my failing relations with my family and my wasted education. it is an insight into how i used to be and how my life was.

Song Description

a song on how i feel drink and drugs etc have controlled my life and changed me and how i feel i need to change. how this has affected my relations with my family.

Lyrics

IM GONA GET MY LIFE BACK




(verse 1)




Im left with no ambitions or hope!

this is a submission to dope!

for im dead broke

and im on a slippery slope,

XTC has got me losing weight

I never ate

I've been staying out late an playing with fate,

My mom hates 2 see me like this

ive got her pissed, coz she thinks ive falling apart

she misses her son

she doesnt know the deathly figure roaming the streets in the dark,

shes been telling my sister that ive broken her heart

an that I aint the same

I know ive changed, but I aint meant 2 cause no pain

The wild lifestyle im living and all the drugs that ive been giving

have got me taking the blame for making the pain

she thinks im a fool who left skool in search of street fame!

so now ive gota face this 'cold world alone'

I lied 2 my mum an got kicked outa house an home

an so ive become a stranger 2 my family and a danger 2 my friends

they say they dont no me no more so maybe then

Ive gota wise up an 'put an end' 2 my twisted mind

for everythings distorted, im happy resorting 2 crime.

im doin things now which were once never ever aloud

my family members think I run round in wrong crowds

an they think I need saved

but wen they drive by, y am I the only 1 who waves







(chorus 1)




" I DONT KNOW WERE MY LIFES AT!

BUT..

IM GONA GET MY LIFE BACK!"




"I DONT KNOW WERE MY LIFES AT!

BUT...

IM GONA GET MY LIFE BACK!"







(verse 2)




Recently ive been treating people like dirt!

Its lak I dont like the sight of people

so I say things which hurt,

Sure I could slap you up the face with words 'that would make you cry'

I would never have said them before, 'now do u know why'

people dont trust me with their money

its coz I cud top u an not pay u back an find it funny,

an this is a sick an sad way 2 be

how can I rely on people, 'if no1 can rely on me'

'or wen they see' the person ive become

a sad act, who doesnt no how 2 react, til having a little fun.

I wana laugh at ur jokes but I choke

id love 2 get my sense of humour back coz im cold

but my brain dont function rite no more 'so I know I wont.'

My heads all over the show

if you asked me wat I did last weekend I wouldnt even know

its the fuckin pills an the blow

an this alcohol inside me wud knife you

how can I live life with you, wen inside my head, im fighting you

but I wana keep it rite with you

coz wer supposed 2 be friends

wer meant 2 stick 2gether til the end

Oh how id love to get my life back on track

coz I miss the good aul days wen we wer having crack!










(chorus 2)




"I DONT KNOW WER MY LIFES AT!

BUT..

IM GONA GET MY LFE BACK!"




"I DONT KNOW WER MY LIFES AT!

BUT..

IM GONA GET MY LIFE BACK!"










(verse 3)




"Wen the drink takes over

Your on a road til nowere

Your on a 'sad' 'long' an 'lonely path,'

you lose sight of everything good in your life

an you lose touch with every1 who was good to you in the past"

its graveyard sunday an I didnt go

with every second it gets closer til 'shitty aul monday'

who ever said 'time goes slow.'

well my granny has not long died

an I shuda been there wit my family an stood by her grave side

but I hit the drink,

thats me all over, god knows wat they think,

for they think ive no worries

but 'do they know' or 'do they care'

that my heads away with the fairies an that I need help

but sure who can you talk to when uve isolated urself

so I drift further an further on out

I got back home yea! But im out kneckin pills all weekend

"sure aint that wat its all about"

im a lost soul whos outa controll

ive went from bein at top grade student seeking a wealthy future

2 being satisfied with the dole,

im lost an I dont no wat to do

I dont wana work shitty jobs the rest of my life

but sure aint that the cost of dropping outa skool,