Story Behind The Song

A good man (the father of a close friend) passed way about 5 years ago. He was a model for me and I was trying to make sense of it. Neil Peart, the drummer from Rush, had experienced the loss of his daughter and wife around that same time. Of the "role models" who I don't personally know, Neil Peart seems a man who worked hard and did his best to make right decisiions. And so how do we find peace with the reality that life can happen this way? That was my question. This song is an attempt to concretize the experience of accepting/overcoming the anguish.

Song Description

The concept for double-light comes from a magnificent passage in Victor Hugo's Les Miserables', For me, it's about accepting the human experience for what it is: challenging, surprising, arduous and ultimately, heroic.

Lyrics

The peace of a Sunday night
To pass at home in perfect silence
Out went the angel-light
And darkness fell into your science

Then I lived my life aware that sometimes we must roll the dice
That's what I did
Then I knew that fate could push me underneath thin sheets of cracking ice
That's what it did

Then I worked to set conditions that would cultivate our lives
I did Ok
Then fortune grimaced carelessly above our final night
Did I do Ok?

If you find a way through
Beyond the anguish - beyond the black and white
As color returns to you
The rain and sun play in the double-light

Now I ride alone with motion as my solitary guide
Would they like it here?
Now from this desert road I see the wildlife reach so far and wide
And they'd love it here

Now memories chase and haunt me in the darkness of a thousand nights
They will only stop when I stop
Now everything in nature is alive yes I saw the colored lights
In their eyes

Try as you might
You can't avoid the double-light