Story Behind The Song

The artist couldn't understand why she was attracted to a certain individual, and she thought that since the feeling was so pronounced on her end, he must have felt similarly. However, she occasionally felt her intelligence was undermined by him, which led her to believe that perhaps some genuine feelings of passion were brewing between them -- or perhaps he simply wasn't interested.

Song Description

Unlike the usual song about unrequited love (gal likes guy; guy doesn't reciprocate -- or vice-versa), in "I Thought I Had a Crush on You," the artist vulnerably, yet firmly contemplates why her crush is not equally enamored and unnerved. She cannot tell if his aloofness is due to his lack of interest, or if he is deliberately gravitating toward the other extreme in an effort to mask his reciprocal feelings.

Lyrics

I THOUGHT I HAD A CRUSH ON YOU

I thought I had a crush on you,
And I thought you felt the attraction too,
But I soon discovered
That I didn?t impress you;
You will never be my lover
And I?ll never undress you.
Maybe you feel;
Maybe you deny.
Maybe it?s real,
And maybe you?re shy.
Or maybe I?m self-conscious,
And I?m just assumin?
That I mess up, ?cause I forget
I?m just talking to a human.

I thought I had a crush on you,
Though I didn?t want to,
?Cause it makes no sense
If it will never come true,
And I can?t explain
Why I feel so elated,
But if you don?t feel the same,
It makes me so frustrated.

Tell me how I can feel so much heat,
And none of it comes from you when we meet.
You?ll soon discover
That there must be a reason;
Come on ? blow your cover,
?Cause I can?t take this teasin?.

I thought I had a crush on you,
Though I didn?t want to,
?Cause it makes no sense
If it will never come true,
And I can?t explain
Why I feel so elated,
But if you don?t feel the same,
It makes me so frustrated.

When it comes to conversation,
Do you not invest
?Cause you?re so afraid
Of what it might suggest?
Or maybe it?s you
Who won?t think of the words,
?Cause you?re too afraid
Of what might be inferred.
Do you consciously not give me credit,
?Cause you?re so damned repressed by the feelings you edit?

I thought I had a crush on you,
Though I didn?t want to,
?Cause it makes no sense
If it will never come true,
And I can?t explain
Why I feel so elated,
But if you don?t feel the same,
It makes me so frustrated.

I thought there was something I adore,
But I don?t anymore;
What am I trying to impress you for?
It?s all too exhausting,
Thought it isn?t untrue
That I thought I had
A crush on you.