Story Behind The Song

Having split with my girlfriend/Daughters Mum, I slipped into a mild depression, I wrote this song as a means to an end to help me out of my mood.

Song Description

It's a story of Hope and respect for my life as it is and what I can make it.

Lyrics

VERSE 1
I remember 2010, it was hard to be alone
with the big 3 0 creeping up so slow
I found myself back at mum's house; looking for a job now
trying so hard but keep getting knocked down
I had to catch a break, had to turn my life around
Take my head out the clouds get my feet on the ground
For the house with a garden 2 cars on the drive
to get the love of my life standing by my side
I had to try a little harder, focus on my health
If your body is a temple, then mines a prison cell
I had to look to the future, put the past in the past
Get on that one way street, yeah, and have the last laugh
Then my little baby girl, I wanna make you proud
So when you look up to your daddy, you'll be looking to the clouds
If things carried on, you'd be looking in the ground
So I had to step it up, and make this my time now

CHORUS
I've been lonely, I've been cheated, I've been mis-under-stood
I've been washed up, I've been put down, I've been told that I'm no good
Now I'm gonna change my life, gonna live it 'til I die
Then I will know i've tried, when I say my last goodbyes

VERSE 2
See I never asked for much, I tried to be myself
I tried to get by not hurting anybody else
And if I've had to take prisoners, & casualties of war
I done what I had to do, cos my hand's been forced
So Im sorry if I ever brought trouble to your door
I'm sure they'll be a few more, wanna settle a score
Now while I get myself together, and keep my head down low
I'll stand up, be a man ... take blow after blow
I've taken everything I'm given played the cards that I was dealt
I take it with a pinch of salt, but I never take help
I don't rely on anybody, only ever trust myself
Then I'm the only one to blame, when things don't go well
Yeah, I know how it goes, you reap what you sow,
I gotta pay the penalties, for dues that I owe,
I might not be liked, but at least I know
My heads held high, no more living on the low, No!

CHORUS
I've been lonely, I've been cheated, I've been mis-under-stood
I've been washed up, I've been put down, I've been told that I'm no good
Now I'm gonna change my life, gonna live it 'til I die
Then I will know i've tried, when I say my last goodbyes

VERSE 3
Don't write me off yet, cos I'm tired of this shit
Just call me in sick ... cos I'm never gonna quit
I gotta think about my kid, my little princess,
Cos this is what it is, so I take it on the chin
I'll take another shot that I can't afford to miss
"This ... Is ... It" that's what MJ said
6 months later & MJs dead
So if things don't change, I might be next
So I'll be giving it my best, till they lay me down to rest
God help anyone who wants a head to head
Cos 'll be fighting for my life 'til I draw my last breathe
Fighting for survival 'til I got nothing left
Now 2000 & whatever & my whole game's changed,
I'm stepping up a gear & I'm about to change lanes
No more smiling through the misery & pain
So this is for my baby, Your Daddy's back again

CHORUS
I've been lonely, I've been cheated, I've been mis-under-stood
I've been washed up, I've been put down, I've been told that I'm no good
Now I'm gonna change my life, gonna live it 'til I die
Then I will know i've tried, when I say my last goodbyes


CHORUS
I've been lonely, I've been cheated, I've been mis-under-stood
I've been washed up, I've been put down, I've been told that I'm no good
Now I'm gonna change my life, gonna live it 'til I die
Then I will know i've tried, when I say my last goodbyes