Deena Rubinson

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discarding the fairy tale and finding real love

Verse 1:
I have tried to be Cinderella
The blonde hair and ashes came easy to me
I have walked through the world
As a wide, blue-eyed girl
And everyone bought it too readily

Chorus 1:
But eventually I missed my corn nuts and beer
My perfect Prince Charming would fail to appear
And what good does it do
To run with one shoe
When nobody?s following you?

Verse 2:
I have tried to be Sleeping Beauty
I closed all the blinds and I shut out the light
And I laid there asleep
In a stupor so deep
That night felt like morning and morning was night

Chorus 2:
But stale morning breath was my only reward
?Cuz nobody rides on a steed with a sword
For a girl playing dead
So I got out of bed
And went to my crap job instead

Verse 3:
I have tried to be a little mermaid
I gave up my home just to wait for a kiss
And when I made the choice
To give up my voice
I never thought it would be something I?d miss

Chorus 3:
But now I know that I can?t go very long
Without bursting into some old Broadway song
So it?s back to the sea
For a mermaid like me
Where kisses will always be free

Bridge:
Happy endings are nothing but lonely
When they happen to somebody else
And life can go by
In the blink of an eye
When you keep yourself wrapped on a shelf

Verse 3:
So I said goodbye, Cinderella
I gave up my fins and I put on my shoes
And I opened the blinds
To a world less than kind
With no one to wait for and nothing to lose

Chorus 3:
Over corn nuts and beer at my usual place
A joke coaxed a tentative smile to my face
And when I turned around
The source of the sound
Was a prince with no white horse and no golden crown
In a split second there
Sitting right on that chair
Was my happy end in a laugh and a stare
So what good does it do
If your true love is true
But you can?t see it following you?

So what good does it do
If your true love is true
But you can?t see it following you?

12

I?ve learned to gamble, baby
And I?ve learned to fight like crazy
I?ve watched with open eyes
As I lived a million lies
And then there was?

I?ve lived for quite a while
Relying on my smile
I?ve learned to dole out answers
I?ve learned that words are cancers
And then there was?

Chorus:
You with a voice that could chase away the devil, now
You in the shadow of an angel?s wing
I believe in the sound of your breathing
I live on the hope you bring
You move like Mississippi moonlight
With the soul of a summer breeze
I hear the light in your heart beating
I will get down on my knees
And say I believe
I have faith, yeah
I am saved
And then there was you

I?ve done it all before
I?ve closed a thousand doors
I?ve learned to disregard
Things like a broken heart
And then there was?

Chorus

I?ve learned to gamble, baby
I?m gambling on?
I?ve learned to fight like crazy
I?ll fight for?
I watch with open eyes
When I?m looking at?
I?ve lived a million lies
To find truth in?

Chorus

1

Maybe if I weren?t so tiny
You?d be able to see me here
Maybe if I were a bit more whiny
Maybe if I shed a few tears
My sweet, sweet voice would wash away
Your bitterness and reach your ears

(chorus)
My sweet, sweet voice
My sweet, sweet voice

Maybe if my hair were blonde and
Maybe if my eyes was blue
Maybe if my tits were bigger
Maybe if my ass was, too
My sweet, sweet voice would rise above
Your bitterness and get to you

(chorus)

And if you shush me one more time
I think I?m gonna choke
You only seem to notice me
When I?m the butt of someone else?s joke

Maybe if I giggled more and
Maybe if I worshipped you and
Maybe if I knew the score and
You were up a point or two
My sweet, sweet voice would cut right through
Your bitterness and get to you

(chorus)

Maybe if I held my tongue and
Maybe if I spoke my mind
Maybe if I was a bit more young and
Maybe if I was a little more behind
My sweet, sweet voice would wash away
Your bitterness and you might find

A sweet, sweet voice

1

a song about waiting for a phone call

It?s been 36 hours
And I?m just a little bruised
I feel just a little tender
I feel just a little used

It?s been 36 hours
And I?m just a little old
I?m the slightest bit more empty
I?m just a little bit more cold

(chorus)
You?ve been whispering in my ear
You?ve been crawling right through my skin
Open a window, turn a little light on
Open that door and let me in
I?ve been sitting here in the dark
I?ve been walking on burning coals
I?ve been sleeping with the shadows
Turn a little light on
Open those arms, grab a hold of me baby

It?s been 36 hours
In an endless, aching day
I?ve got hands that want to hold you
And I?m forcing them to play

(chorus)

It?s been 36 hours
And my heart is in your hands
And I ask you to be gentle
?cuz I had to take the chance

It?s been 36 hours
And I?m dancing in my skin
And I feel just like I?m bleeding
And I sure could use a friend

(chorus)

0

Just a couple of miles
I?ll let you take me
A couple of miles
?Cuz you look like an old friend
I think that was me
Was it yesterday?
With you and a bed
And you look like an old friend
A motel that smelled like rain
It?s the kind I used to
Love with someone else
And you look like an old friend of mine

Chorus:
So I?ll let you take me just a couple miles
Down around that new familiar road
With all the signs I?ve read before
And the blurred white lines I?ve heard before
Just one more time
You look like an old friend of mine

Just a couple of miles
And you want so much
More than I can give
You look like an old friend
The whole damn trip
Some magic mushrooms
And a technicolor dreamcoat
You look like an old friend
It?s the tension in my eyes
It?s the turned down corners
At the edge of my smile
And you look like an old friend of mine

Chorus

Just a couple of miles
I?ll let you take me
A couple of miles
?Cuz you look like an old friend
I think that was me
Was it yesterday?
With you and a bed
And you look like an old friend
A motel that smelled like rain
It?s the kind I used to
Love with someone else
And you look like an old friend of mine

Chrous

0

If I could turn my brain off (I did it again)
And you can turn my heart on (I did it again)
If I could make my body stop (I did it again)
And you can make this whole thing start (I did it again)
I did it again, yeah

With a turn of phrase and a twist of fate (I did it again)
With my crooked smile just a bit too late (I did it again)
With a second guess from the first time through (I did it again)
In a log flume ride with a glance at you (I did it again)
I did it again, yeah

It?s the right one then but the wrong time now (I did it again)
And I?m looking for a way out but I don?t see how (I did it again)
And another open door could close the deal (I did it again)
With the slightest touch and a whole lot of feel (I did it again)
I did it again, yeah

If I catch your eyes when the lights go off I?ll do it again
And I lose my grip when my heart turns on I?ll do it again
If I feel your breath on the back of my neck I?ll do it again
And you?ve got all the aces in the deck, but I?ll do it again
And I think I?m headed for a big train wreck, but I?ll do it again
And I really ought to bail?
But what the heck, I?ll do it again
I?ll do it again, yeah

3

Verse 1:
Lately I?ve been spending a lot of time in my bed
Lately I?ve been racing the ghosts inside my head
Lately I?ve been calling my family everyday
Lately they?ve been ducking
And I?ve begun to pray

Chorus:
And it sure do look like something?s got to give
As far as I can see
Oh, I?ve got a feeling that something?s gonna break
It might as well be me

Verse 2:
Lately I?ve been mourning the loss of all my friends
Lately there?s no warning before a good thing ends
Lately I?ve been walking with my nose pointed straight at the ground
Lately views are better
If I don?t look around

Chorus

Bridge:
Something?s gotta give
Something?s gonna break
Just take a look now
Over your shoulder and watch your back
It sure do look like
Something?s gonna bleed
Something?s gonna fall
I got a feeling that
Something?s gonna bust
Something?s gonna crack
It might as well be me

Verse 3:
Lately I?ve been wondering
Lately I?ve been racing
Lately I?ve been missing
Lately I?ve been calling

2

She sits on the counter
In a little pink onesy that her grandma gave me
She?s got a smile that?s as big as California and
Eyes that sparkle like the Northern Star

And, oh, my eyes keep blinking

She sits on the counter
And listens to the music that my sister gave me
She?s got hair like a whacked-out bushman
A laugh that rumbles like Niagara Falls

And, oh, my eyes keep blinking

From the kitchen to the living room is fourteen paces
From there to the stairs it?s twenty-nine
Seventeen stairs to the upstairs landing
Five paces front and five behind
And three to the side
Will catch him sleeping

I look to the counter
Through the haze of a headache that her daddy gave me
But she?s got a smile that?s as big as California
A laugh like music and a beating heart and a
Cry that?ll fill the entire Grand Canyon
Eyes that sparkle like the Northern Star

Oh, the Northern Star

an attempt to save a dissolving friendship

Verse 1:
I remember
Driving with the top down
The cool of the canyons can make you
Jump a little lighter, yeah

I remember
A restaurant in New York
20th and Broadway can make you
Hold your head just a little bit higher

I remember
The shops on Melrose
A little voice inside my ear said
?Gimme that bra, girl, here?s my lighter?

Chorus 1:
It?s no good to wonder about it all
We all have to rise before we fall
I don?t know how love can turn so easily to spite
I just know that I would like to sleep peacefully tonight
So won?t you go with me, baby
Down that road
One step further from regret
Come on home with me, sister
We can meet in the middle
I?m trying to forget

Verse 2:
I remember
Those summer nights with you
On a sunset rooftop
When we didn?t have to try
And I remember
My first shot of tequila
When a drink was a little vacation
And I could look you in the eye

Chorus 2

Bridge (instrumental)

Chorus 3:
So won?t you go...