Story Behind The Song

This song was written at the bottom of the bottle. Grasping for any straws that were left. Trying to make her see how much I love her only to be destroyed with how much she didn't. Love is lost, but at what cost?

Song Description

Produced by Tyrannical Productions, this is probably the deepest song on the "Attrition" album. Turn down the lights and turn up your speakers. I need you to listen.

Lyrics

Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Is everything all in my mind?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
So what's it gonna be?
I can tell when you smile at me,
everything has died inside and we
lost all grip with reality.
I don't if I can make it all night.
You know I love you right?
I just lost the fight.
Paralyzed by the end of the night
like a string on a broken kite.
So what's next? Do I gotta accept this quest?
I hit pause cause I needed a rest.
Still impressed with the beating heart inside of my chest.
It took a beating when we broke up
over a text. I'm a mess.
And I really wanna know what's next.
Reassess how we coalesce.
Baby nevertheless,
I confess when you wear that dress
my heart you repossess.
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Is everything all in my mind?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
You get me so high.
So high that I look down and touch the sky.
In the stars that I occupy
gettin' low on air supply.
Just give it a week though
and then we go back to the freakshow.
A tale of a likely hero
sent to save Earth from a deadly curse
but he made the situation worse.
So he fights the illusion
through the lies and confusion.
Bright lights and delusion won't stop the solution.
So he keeps on movin'. Tryin' to keep improvin'.
But the holes in the metal of his armor get to him.
But he still won't quit. No he won't submit.
Under oath through the grime and grit.
In a rush to contain the blitz
til he slits his wrists.
Watch him fall when she calls it quits.
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Is everything all in my mind?
Why didn't she kiss me goodbye?
Hey. I just got your text. My bad. I was gettin' dressed.
I spilled a whole cup of coffee all over my desk
and in the process I got my fuckin' hoodie wet.
Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Slow down!
What the fuck?! What you mean time's up?!
What you mean now we gotta break up?!
We been through too much
just to go and give up.
We been fine now for damn well over a month.
Please don't do it again babe.
You're my best friend. Just get it through your fuckin' head,
that you're all I got. You can like it or not,
but you're never gonna tell me to stop.
No. No. No. Baby please don't hang up.
I'm sorry I shouted.
I'm just freaking out tryin' to take this all in.
You left me here without a kiss goodbye
and I'm always gonna wonder why.
Why didn't you kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't you kiss me goodbye?
Is everything all in my mind?
Why didn't you kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't you kiss me goodbye?
Why didn't you kiss me goodbye?
Is everything all in my mind?
I'm losing my fucking mind!!!