Story Behind The Song

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Song Description

This song is about my lifes journey on three different planes all dealing with those who have or hadn't had influence on my life.

Lyrics

cause every second of life im being tested,
an'didn't know when God leading it's hectic
thought about my own way and a path but i stayed
on my ass like at God speed when i wrecked it
i didn't mean to give you this message, but i
see that i got to feed these lessons to ya
ain't enough weed to keep me guessing if i'll
come with inspiration or be deemed to a sentence
and drinking wasn't no anonymous problem that i
had to seek advice or constantly bother, but i
had to be a man and dropped the bottle
promised God often someone please tell Bob, that i
lost a father, kept fallin a victim to all the
drugs, sex and alcohol, all in his system, should i,
be upset stay or gripped with this grudge
if i had one in the physical i give'm a hug and say


not tryin to tell ya how to handle ya business
im just, trying to understand, where we offended
and im sick of living just wondering why is it..
the truth, can you prove it, did up and you died
and im so tired, just giving this cold shoulder
having to smile feeling this world bowl over me
God tell me yo, did he quit with his role-model
packed his bags, alone, and hittin the road...


now, mother doesn't understand the burden, that
im, equipt with gifts, that demand a purpose, and i
stay fightin with this man on the surface cause
it doesn't make me saved, jus playin the service
and i, can't say that im in the churches, but i
can say that im livin worth it, cause i
got a conscious in me, that will throb and hit me
i never stole, killed or shot up any
i just kept my focus, and hope when the man calls
that's it's not a man in blue with hand cuffs,
and it's possible, i can chose religion or a sect
it doesn't matter at all when the man calls, yet
i stay thinking of you and the retirement check
im sending off, i stay working no retiring bless
the day mom, i see you chillin with no worries
or issues, four years an' im startin to miss you


not tryin to tell ya how to handle ya business
im just, trying to understand if i offended you
with little questions, you were lettin me go
sending me off with a prayer, to get to my goal
and it's so very possible could have kept me at home,
i said God called me there, so you left it alone, and
now im charged often with this sense that i hold
now it's all justified why im hittin the road


really dog, now im getting use to having you
im use to getting pity, never really had the truth
till i cried one night and asked for you on my
knees begging please God, im mad at you
i want a brother that will teach me something
im alone in this game and being im hunted
like a victim, the system, had me all messed up face
in the matrix, the basics you get all unplugged
started to hate it, but the zone is false in comfort
thought this would be so easier, im lost or something
it took many prayers, took many rebukings, took so many
beatings, took vomitin puking, took you draggin me out
when i was high on some bullsh*t, trying some new mess
shoulda been trying THE BOOK, when i got you view kid
i gotta do what i gotta do with the vibe and i gotta
choose before i get moved to the side

not tryin to tell ya how to handle ya business
im just, trying to understand, now don't get pissed
when i start slipping, seeds keep me on my toes, till
it grows and it's planted and im getting along
and i, remember everything your spirit has told me
and it's the first time words have stuck on upon me
but i, guess it's time that we get on with this show
in our schedule, we gonna start hittin the road