Story Behind The Song

This is a song that I wrote about my own feelings for my current partner because I was, in fact, too afraid to allow the relationship to happen because I was too afraid of becoming so vulnerable to another person in my life. So I took the calm and cool way out and said that I didn't care, but I always did and still do...

Song Description

This is a song that is essentially an oxymoron. The singer is singing that she does not care, but in actuality, she does. There is so much potential to expose vulnerabilities in such a deep relationship that she is afraid to admit that she is in love and says that she is not and acts as if she is indifferent to the relationship.

Lyrics

I'm not so good at all these games.
I don't know how to play.
I'm running scared 'cause I don't know
if you want to stay...
with me...

I have to look out for myself.
You see I'm broken inside.
I don't feel this way often,
and it makes me want to hide.

But then I realize
that sometimes it's easier
to just not care...
My heart's not in there if
I just don't care...

Sometimes I know that I seem cold
every time we meet,
but you should know that I glow
because you make feel
complete...

I want to tell you I think about you
every night and day,
but then I know how you don't want that,
and it hurts me to say...

I just don't care...
I just don't care...
I just don't care...

Look in my eyes and tell me what
you see in me.
I know that you are so afraid,
and you won't let this
ever be...
with me...

I want to touch you, but when I try to
you push me away...
You broke my heart--right from the start.
I don't know what to say...

But then I realize
that sometimes it's easier
to just not care.
My heart's not in there if
I just don't care...