Lyrics

Sitting in this house and Im sitting in this chair,
Feeling kind of mad bouts to pull out my hair
Thinking bout my life its not going no where,
If the Lord takes me now I really don?t care,
Feeling so scared,
Is not how I feel,
What is my destiny will I get a record deal,
This is so real,
These thoughts running through my brain,
But I do not feel no pain
Im not feeling very sane,
Cause it feels like im going in circles all the time,
130 in the morning and Im making this rhyme,
Feeling so fine, when I a make a hit,
Probably should go to bed, but I do not give a shit
It?s the same damn game aint a damn thing changed,
Still making these raps trying to let you know my name,
Psycho ass shit crossed my mind once befo,
About getting out the house and not coming back no mo,

My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Cause it feels like Im going in circles all the time,
Cant see the light at the end of the line
My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Should I stay or go take my bags to the door,
Not looking back cause I cant take this no more

Ive been with this girl for about 4 years,
Living on the edge study having these fears,
Will she listen to her peers and choose the wrong path,
Or will she listen to her man and make this love game last,
Theres so much things going in my mind right now,
These feelings overwhelming want to throw in the towel,
All my life Ive been living for people all around,
Wanted to stay with my woman went to school in town,
Thinking that the favor would get returned,
Year 05 and Im feeling kind of burned,
Cause she didn?t give a shit about my feelings how I felt,
She left me so selfish only thinking bout herself,
But I can forgive so I try to make it happen,
Not seeing her this shit aint crackin,
But does she really care I don?t think so,
Call her on the phone and she always says she got to go,

My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Cause it feels like Im going in circles all the time,
Cant see the light at the end of the line
My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Should I stay or go take my bags to the door,
Not looking back cause I cant take this no more

Just sitting and waiting for a big life change,
Go somewhere else and create a new name,
Its hard when you do everything for a girl,
Buy her diamonds and pearls and make her your world,
But its not very cool if your doing everything,
Sending flowers, writing poems, and trying to sing,
Ive done too much its time to step back,
And don?t live for her cause she aint living for me man,
She saying sorries all the time forgiveness is my line,
But I think its around the time where I try to get mine,
Not thinking bout no one but my damn self,
Cause they didn?t think about me didn?t ask for my help,
I just want to get up out of this place,
Giving so much feeling like a disgrace,
Love means a lot but its not an excuse to stay,
Wont be here tomorrow cause you took advantage of today

My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Cause it feels like Im going in circles all the time,
Cant see the light at the end of the line
My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Should I stay or go take my bags to the door,
Not looking back cause I cant take this no more

My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Cause it feels like Im going in circles all the time,
Cant see the light at the end of the line
My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Should I stay or go take my bags to the door,
Not looking back cause I cant take this no more

My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Cause it feels like Im going in circles all the time,
Cant see the light at the end of the line
My Life is so messed up
Don?t know where Im going left or right down or up,
Should I stay or go take my bags to the door,
Not looking back cause I cant take this no more