Story Behind The Song

this is a song i wrote during my recovery from being brainwashed. coming out of denial, learning to love.

Song Description

this is a song about self examination.

Lyrics

brainwashed

i try and find my way through
mesmerized deceptions
trading all my memory for hope i hope i'll have

i pray the nightmares i have
always called my own will
finally leave me and then we can be as one.

i never meant for it to go this far
i smothered all my thoughts until they all stayed quieted.
i want to live, i want to grow, i want to know what mine feilds they have left inside my mind,
that i still cannot find,
i want to know myself
from before what they did to me
so that i can be free

(ch) who do we think we are?
what are we trying to be?
how did we get so far from humanity?

i think of all the unknown faces
the ones we try to hide from in the streets
i wonder who it was that hurt them so bad
to leave them stranded in their lives
stranded just like me
i wonder if there is a story
behind their concrete beds
and their shopping cart walls
who was their mother?
what was their need?
that goes on unfulfilled
and we just turn our heads and eat lunch in our cars

(ch) who do we think we are?
what are we trying to be?
how did we get so far from humanity?

another day i can't get out of bed
my lover holds me and just like he's always said, he says,
"baby, take your time, it's all ok, we'll find a way through this together."
and i cry...
for all the times
i wished i'ld had
someone like that
right next to me
but never did
but then i see him
looking at me with love...

(ch x2) who do we think we are?
what are we trying to be?
how did we get so far from humanity?

who do we think we are?
what are we trying to be?
how did we get so far from humanity?