Story Behind The Song

I was at a place where I felt like I was constantly being beaten down by certain people and certain circumstances. I tried pining away, I tried drinking things away, I tried everything I could to prove the hero. So I figured that if I'm not cut out for that line of work, then I guess I'll prove the villain instead.

Song Description

If you can't beat 'em, join 'em.

Lyrics

I?ve already rolled up my sleeves,
So don?t grow a conscience on me now.
This isn?t the time, and you can?t just leave.
Don?t try to do right when you don?t know how.

I promise I won?t put up a fight?
Won?t cry out for help or hesitate.
See, I could be lethal at this height,
But I have to become the thing I hate.

It?s a face I can wear if I loosen a notch.
I?ll try not to stare, but I do want to watch.

There?s no other way that this can go.
Surely you know that much by now.
Look me in the eye and tell me no?
That I can survive these wounds somehow.

You don?t have to make this quick.
I just want the greed to stick.
You?re not my nurse; you?re not my guard.
So don?t let up, and lock down hard.
I?m already halfway free,
So pour all your grief in me.
I have nothing left to rob?
I have you; finish the job.

I?m poisoning everything I?ve grown.
I?m wallowing in the peace that brings.
I want you to turn me into stone.
They tell me I won?t really feel a thing.