Song Description

One man's wrenching search for love

Lyrics

[verse 1]
Yo let me spit something real raw, Love is War
And that?s more to me than just some metaphor, yo it?s the truth
and we in darkness now so truth is the light
and the truth, I been looking for love for all of my life
and I know, I aint supposed to be the emotional type
cuz I?m a man right, got to keep my feelins in tight
but give me three minutes and let me put my heart on the table, then I?ll go back to being strong, fearless, willing and able
Pardon me now as I reminisce, let me take you back in time
when I was a little kid with an undeveloped mind
in the need of confidence, in the need of self-esteem but all I used to get was all the things that were wrong with me
It seems I couldn?t fit in, for real I tried to do it.
the only time I got some shine was me doing my music
But off stage, I couldn?t find a crew to fit in
looking back it was wisdom that took me out of Brooklyn
cuz I know what would have happen, come across some O.G. that accepted me I?d proably be up here doing some robbin and gun clappin... ?stead of rappin
This search for love?s about to change me to a madman? for real.

[hook]
This is the kind of love that be burnin in your soul
like a hunger pain, it rises up, takes control
gotta find it man I need it so much more than you know
it?s tearin at me and it won?t let me go, oh, yo
This is the kind of love that be breakin you down
hurtin now, calling for it but it wont come around
climbing up the highest mountain, digging under the ground
searching for it but can it be found


[verse 2]
Now let me bring you up in time, grown up and doing fine
got a few associates but they aint real friends of mine
I?m moving forward cutting through the hassles like a knife and
I?m trying to get ahead, I?m fine, I?m tryin to make a life and
I?m doing all the stuff they said a man supposed to do
I got the wife I got the kid I got the house too.
I hate to tell you but Luther was wrong
cuz you could have a woman in your house and still not have a home
My daughter loves me though, but that too might pass
cuz one day, she might blame me for all the faults that she has.
Same way I blamed my mom and dad for all my mistakes
my insecurities, my flaws and my hard-knock breaks
I told?m that to they face, never apologized
and years later, I can still see the hurt in they eyes
and I wonder, will that same look one day be mine
when I?m the object of my daughter?s despise.

[hook]

[verse 3]
And now it?s Sunday morn, and I?m like standing strong
No love from friends or family but somehow holding on
"So how you keep persevering?" I tell you it?s odd
Something changed in my frame once I heard about God
and I found out, he?s got so much love for me
That I don?t need another drop of love from nobody
cuz if he could love me the way I been living
then I?m a stop looking for love and just start giving
I got love for my wife, man, love for my seed
love for my friends, love for my enemies
love for the haters who never did believe
even love for those plottin now how to kill me
just like they killed my lord, but now I got his sword
and I?m a work the land until we stand on one accord
so if you feeling like you wanna run come on board
put your hands in the air, let me hear what you want.

[hook]