Can I Never Leave My Past Behind?

Story Behind The Song

In June 2006, I was approached by Marcus Lim (also a friend of mine) to be involved in this major musical project, which will be performed in London in conjunction with the King's College London Malaysian-Singaporean Society (KCLMSS) Night 2007. I am very grateful and honoured to be given this opportunity to write the music of this musical - it's also my very first! This solo is based on my award-winning composition 'Hopeless Tears'. It was also performed recently at The Met Opera Singing Contest on 1 September 2007 organised by Golden Village Cinemas, partnered with Canon, where it clinched 1st Prize for the competition.

Song Description

This is the solo sung by the character Mok in 'MERDEKA: The Rock Musical' performed at Greenwood Theatre, London on 28 February - 2 March 2007, expressing his inner struggles as he tries to put his dark past behind him. Vocals by Marcus Lim. This solo is based on my award-winning composition 'Hopeless Tears'. It was also performed recently at The Met Opera Singing Contest on 1 September 2007 organised by Golden Village Cinemas, partnered with Canon, where it clinched 1st Prize for the competition.

Song Length 4:10 Genre Pop - General, Unique - Soundtracks
Lead Vocal Male Vocal Mood Poignant, Depressing
Language English Era 2000 and later

Lyrics

Angry faces in every doorway.
Accusing looks in every town.
Silent curses.
Empty voices.
The fear deep down.
Once upon a time i saw him,
The great leader in his prime.
Everywhere we looked,
We saw salvation in our time.
We held the torch of a new dawn burning,
We were the hope of a better life.
No one ever told us, all this came at the point of a knife. Now! Can I escape my past, what was before?
Can I never end this inner war,
And all those eyes, those voices inside?
That keep haunting me.
Just One Chance.
To leave it all behind and start anew.
Forget what has been done, what I had to do.
I'm not the man I was before.
Just one chance!
I remember when I saw her as clear as it was yesterday.
White as snow...
And i can still recall the teardrops falling from her eyes like rain.
Over now! It's over now!
But still I feel the shame.
I could have done so much to free her.
I should have done much more to save her.
But in my dreams, she stands before me!
Her eyes
Begging,
Pleading,
Screaming,
Accusing!
This is the curse I have to bear!
And yet...
Is this the end?
Can I conceal myself forever more?
Can i never end this inner war?
And all these eyes, these voices inside!
They keep haunting me!
There's no way back!
For everywhere I turn, this endless rage!
All of us, just players on a stage!
And can no one see, its the Devil's hand!
It's the Devil's hand that's turning the page!
Accusing looks in every doorway
Infect the prison of my mind
Can I never leave my past behind?

Music by: Davyd Chong
Lyrics by: Marcus Lim

Lyrics Marcus Lim Music Davyd Chong
Producer Davyd Chong Publisher Davyd Chong
Performance Davyd Chong & Marcus Lim

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