Story Behind The Song

This song was written when I was dating a beautiful and wonderful girl, but I could tell that thing were not going to work out. The first lines of this song came to me one night when were were riding home from a concert together in the back of a taxi cab ... a couple of weeks later, we called it quits.

Song Description

Have you ever been in a near perfect relationship that ended up falling through the cracks and not working out? This song described the feeling of being near the end of a relationship, knowing it is about to be over.

Lyrics

Disillusioned

The sky is dark tonight and the moon is low
I know it?s time to leave but I don?t know just where I?ll go
?Cause I can?t find my way alone

I feel you next to me but I don?t know just what to say
How is it we were closer when we were three thousand miles away
And now we can?t find the words today

I remember when it used to be
That I could see your soul when you smiled at me
I could see the things you held inside
Just by taking a look into those beautiful eyes
But those days have died

I?ve tried to let you go while I?m still hanging on
?Cause I can?t bear the thought of you ever really being gone
And I?m scared that I can?t go on

Why must I push you away when I think that I need you here
Are the feelings that I feel right now just reflecting my constant fear
Of a future that?s never clear

I remember when it used to be
That I could see your soul when you smiled at me
I could see the things you held inside
Just by taking a look into those beautiful eyes
But those days have died

Couldn?t we just continue to try
It could work ? no, I know that?s a lie
Why is this all tearing me apart
When it?s my own damn choice to lock up my heart
And just watch us die
I can?t watch us die