Story Behind The Song

I wrote this song about a complicated relationship that ended abruptly and without a real explanation. We were both angry, and I couldn't understand why he thought he had the right to be. He was the one who misled me, and I was always good to him and deserved better than that. I felt like he never understood where I was coming from, and didn't want to understand. I wrote this song to express that frustration.

Lyrics

I never had illusions of you being the one
Kept on telling myself that we were having fun
But ain't nothing was fun about it
And I really couldn't do without it
Who was I foolin'
It was my own life I ruined
And I know I cheated myself, but boy you did it first
And I couldn't believe you'd ever have the nerve
To go taking my love for granted
Boy I never could understand it
And you left me without reason
For all of your deceiving

And I just gotta know
Why you hurt me so bad
Cut me off at the knees
Why the hell can't you see
All I wanted was you
And you threw it away
Tossed me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is
Why don't you see what you did to me
Not the woman I was
Don't like what I've become
And you don't even care that
You stabbed me in the back
Left me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is why

Now I can't sleep, now I can't breathe
Wishing you were right here with me
'Cause I can't get you out my head
Got me wishing I'd never let you in
And you say that you're sorry
And you say that you don't know why
You turned and walked away
Now there's nothing left to say
If you can't justify my broken spirit
If you can't tell me why, don't wanna hear it
Tired of fighting, don't wanna cry
Tired of hiding this deep inside
You know I hate that I can't let it go
And I'm trying my best to move on
Now I just need to know

And I just gotta know
Why you hurt me so bad
Cut me off at the knees
Why the hell can't you see
All I wanted was you
And you threw it away
Tossed me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is
Why don't you see what you did to me
Not the woman I was
Don't like what I've become
And you don't even care that
You stabbed me in the back
Left me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is why

Why did you hold me
When you didn't mean what you said
When you played with my head
Why couldn't you be
Who I wanted you to be
Why wouldn't you know me
Why did I try so hard
When I knew you were such a lost cause
Why couldn't I see
There was no mystery
I was so misled in your make-believe

And I just gotta know
Why you hurt me so bad
Cut me off at the knees
Why the hell can't you see
All I wanted was you
And you threw it away
Tossed me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is
Why don't you see what you did to me
Not the woman I was
Don't like what I've become
And you don't even care that
You stabbed me in the back
Left me out in the cold
And all I wanna know is why