Lyrics

i'm tired of this just enough luck to plant one kiss and then gone
step up to bat; swing and miss what went wrong
i'd like to know the reason for
what's on my plate leaves me hungry for more
i'd like to think i could settle the score by myself
but these odds won't help

life left me coal in my stocking
this christmas eve left me too bitter for talking
this medicine left me too dead to care
go on ahead and i'll meet you there i might not
i'll see what i've got left in my skin why can't i win tonight

i'm breaking the mold the reaction i get makes my blood run cold
i'm anything but sold not a sheep in the herd and how dare i be bold
i wish i could just fold or at least find a way to turn my nothing to gold
i'd like to know the reason for
what's on my plate leaves me hungry for more
i'd like to think i could settle the score by myself
but these odds won't help

life left me coal in my stocking
this christmas eve left me too bitter for talking
this medicine left me too dead to care
go on ahead and i'll meet you there i might not
i'll see what i've got left in my skin why can't i win tonight

i'm taller then trees, but you sky scrapers and blocking the light from which i feed
i'm stronger then greed, but this camera lense distorts wants from the needs
i'm bored with what i see, trapped in this cage i just long to be free
i'm sick of redundancy these words all the same from page one to page three
if only life were that easy a read, then i could rest easy

but i'd like to believe that things could change
but i'm scared and would rather stay the same
i'd like to take a chance and show the world my hand
maybe prove that i'm a man
i'd just rather you'd take my hand

life left me coal in my stocking
this christmas eve left me too bitter for talking
this medicine left me too dead to care
go on ahead and i'll meet you there i might not
i'll see what i've got left in my skin why can't i win tonight

it's not your fault that i'm like this
it's really none of your business
it doesn't have to ruin your christmas
ruin your christmas
ruin your christmas night

the song is about all sorts of things ranging from the first verse is my
continual bad luck with girls, the chorus is derived from the time i spent
perscribed to adderall which is like riddilin, basically speed and it made
me not a cool person to be around, the 2nd verse is my disgust with the negative
attitude people generally have towards new or different things, the 3rd verse is
sort of pointing out what's askew in the world of new, the bridge is my uncertainty
in myself and the wish to just take someone's hand and have it all be better, and
finally the outro is kind of like me saying "but hell, what's it to you," "don't
worry about it," or "enjoy yourself and don't pity me"