Story Behind The Song

my best friend that i was secretly in love with left me, without reason or explanation.

Song Description

this song took a very long time to write. the melody is from a japanese song called "nagai aida" by kiroro. i do not know how to write music, just lyrics so i borrow the melodies form asian songs that i like. i think it turned out really well and i hope you enjoy listening to it. i'm an okay singer, it just feels weird having someone else sing a song that i wrote since its so personel. the music quality is very bad, me and my friends recorded this in two days, they live really far away.

Lyrics

never thought you would,
be the one to make me feel so sad,
i guess a lifetime ago,
i must have did something really bad,
why did it have to happen again,
thought you would be different,
but in the end, its always goodbye,
no matter how hard i try.


so what does my heart beat for,
if it wasn't meant to be yours,
and my arms they have no use,
if they can never hold you,
and tell me why do i have these eyes,
if all they do is cry,
and if i never see you again,
why do i even open them?


how can i fly if i have no wings,
find a reason to sing,
see a flower bloom,
and not think of you,


what if the mountains just too high,
and i don't know how to climb,
getting over you,
is something i can't do.


how much blood do i have to bleed,
to get you to see,
that i need you with me.


so if you're my best friend,
then tell me where are you when,
i'm sitting here all alone,
when i need a friend the most.
they say time can heal all wounds,
but what if i don't live that long,
how can i be strong, when i feel weak,
without you i can't do anything.


it was always you
i would turn to,
so what do i do,
if the one thats hurting me is you.


how much longer do i have to lie,
tell everyone that i'm fine,
when i know i
have to let you go


how can my heart take anymore,
how can it break anymore,
how do i not love you?


and if i cried,
a million times,
would you even care,
because i'm already halfway there,


and if i waited a million years,
would you know i was here,
love you so much,
how could it not be enough,


why does the sun have to rise,
if you're not by my side,
if i won't be with you,


and tell me do you even feel anything,
know how much i'm hurting,
gave you my heart,
and you gave it back.


is this all that it's gonna be,
just empty memories,
when does it get easier for me.


and it even hurts,
when i dream of you,
no matter what i do
they won't come true,


so somebody please,
stop the hurting,
nothing seems to help,
i need you and no one else


all i want to do,
is to love you,
but what's the use,
if you don't love me.


and even though it hurts,
i have to know, before you go,
when did you stop caring for me?