Story Behind The Song

I knew "Lacey" briefly, both online from a less provocative chatroom and later in person, but we had fallen out of touch. When I heard of her death, I was moved to write a tribute to her, so she could live on in some way. I was more moved by her death tha

Song Description

"Lacey" was the online pseudonym of a professional woman living in California who was pursuing an alternative lifestyle via racy Internet chatrooms. She left her husband and son (then 8) to pursue some of the men she had met online. She soon found the gra

Lyrics

Threw away your husband just to chase the dream
Couldn?t reconcile him with your life on screen
You built your ideal on a shaky foundation
Basing all your norms on a standard deviation

Always searching for that sweeter ache
But you gave up more than you meant to forsake
There was always someone out there who could make you scream
But no one could treat you lower than your own self esteem
Oh Lacey...
Didn?t you know...

Perfection lies beyond pixels
Cyber heavens turn to private hells
You can?t drown your demons or cure all your ills
With the vodka bottle and those sleeping pills

You couldn?t bear it that he planned to rewed
Thought him heartbroken but he recovered instead
Then your computer?s hum became too loud to take
And the scroll on the screen was too fast to keep pace
Oh Lacey...

The chatters droned on but their message was lost
You weighed their advice against the soul it had cost
So you sent your boy away to spend time with your ex
And cleared out the hard drive so they?d never suspect
Oh Lacey...
Didn?t you know...

Words: Dawn M. Barclay
Music: Joshua Jedwab
© Dawn M. Barclay and Joshua Jedwab - All Rights Reserved