Story Behind The Song

I remember just saying to myself one day - "I just want to die". It was then that I realized what it meant that I had to die to the world and become a new creation in Christ.

Song Description

The struggles of walking the everyday walk as a believer.

Lyrics

I pray that I?d go on and that my heart would touch thy throne.
Only you could know what that means to me.
Wars of spirits rule my night as I am searching for the light.
I need some faith so I may know where I should be.

I really mean it this time. I am tired of living this crime.
I?ve hit rock bottom and I cannot find the way.
Like footprints in the sand, if I could only take your hand,
I know you?d guide from the night into the day.

I have this thorn thrust in my side. It?s getting really hard to hide.
Can you be the strength and refuge that I need?
I need to find out who you are. Do you live in men?s hearts or in the stars? It doesn?t matter because I am following your lead.

Help me as I grow old because at times I grow so cold.
I can?t envision any other way to be.
I ?m hoping for a change. I hear your voice and it?s so strange.
But I know the words you say to me are?Do you feel like dying?

Help me not to look around when I see the sky kiss the ground.
My foundation is the rock and I?m so high.(untouchable)
I take it out, I take it in, forgiveness in my every sin.
The nails have come unglued and I see the light.

Chorus

Every time I close my eyes I can think of nothing but the orange
Changing to the shades of grey.
By that time there?s nothing left inside my mind except the images
Of dreams that fade away..