Chris Hartwell

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Have you ever been in a near perfect relationship that ended up falling through the cracks and not working out? This song described the feeling of being near the end of a relationship, knowing it is about to be over.

This song was written when I was dating a beautiful and wonderful girl, but I could tell that thing were not going to work out. The first lines of this song came to me one night when were were riding home from a concert together in the back of a taxi cab ... a couple of weeks later, we called it quits.

Disillusioned

The sky is dark tonight and the moon is low
I know it?s time to leave but I don?t know just where I?ll go
?Cause I can?t find my way alone

I feel you next to me but I don?t know just what to say
How is it we were closer when we were three thousand miles away
And now we can?t find the words today

I remember when it used to be
That I could see your soul when you smiled at me
I could see the things you held inside
Just by taking a look into those beautiful eyes
But those days have died

I?ve tried to let you go while I?m still hanging on
?Cause I can?t bear the thought of you ever really being gone
And I?m scared that I can?t go on

Why must I push you away when I think that I need you here
Are the feelings that I feel right now just reflecting my constant fear
Of a future that?s never clear

I remember when it used to be
That I could see your soul when you smiled at me
I could see the things you held inside
Just by taking a look into those beautiful eyes
But those days have died

Couldn?t we just continue to try
It could work ? no, I know that?s a lie
Why is this all tearing me apart
When it?s my own damn choice to lock up my heart
And just watch us die
I can?t watch us die

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This song tells the story of having someone who looks up to you like you were perfect, and realizing that one day those views will be shattered when they see you for who you really are.

Written about a younger cousin (Jenny) who looked up to me like I was an angel. But I knew as she grew older, she would see that I am not the perfect person she thought I was.

Jenny

Jenny, don?t look to me
I?m not someone you should see
As the saint you?ve got pictured in your mind
Jenny, don?t turn to me
I?m not someone who should be
A role model ? I?ve still my way yet to find

Jenny, don?t follow me
I don?t want you to see
What I?ve seen with all of the images frayed
Jenny, don?t come to me
I?m struggling for sanity
In my head with all of the choices I?ve made

And though I try to be the man you try to see
I can?t seem to let go of all that I used to know
And though I try and try to cover up the lie
I fear the tears as it all becomes clearer to you

Jenny, don?t look to me
I?m not someone you should see
As the saint you?ve got pictured in your mind
Jenny, don?t turn to me
I?m not someone who should be
A role model ? I?ve still my way yet to find

Jenny, don?t follow me
I don?t want you to see
What I?ve seen with all of the images frayed
Jenny, don?t come to me
I?m struggling for sanity
In my head with all of the choices I?ve made

(The future makes me afraid
Of the paths I have laid
From the road I have strayed)

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Who hasn't taken a loved one for granted only to realize how much they meant to you after they have gone away? ... Luckily sometimes there are second chances, as with this song.

This is a story about my relationship with a girl whom I have actually never been involved with romantically, but whom I consider a very close friend. She had to fly home suddenly at the death of her father, and until I felt the pain that she was feeling inside me, I never realized how close we really were. Once she returned, I did all that was in my power to take away her pain and hurting.

Right In Front Of Me

I never knew she was here until she was gone
Until the light turned off I didn?t know it was on

But now that she?s back in front of me
I see what before I couldn?t see
The moon and the stars of which I dream
Could be right in front of me

I never saw the strength that she held deep inside
Until I saw the tears that she never cried

But now that she?s back in front of me
I see what before I couldn?t see
The moon and the stars of which I dream
Could be right in front of me

I hear her laugh running through the rain
For a moment she seems to forget all about the pain
Her hair soaked, her makeup running as she wipes the drops from her brow
But she?s never been more beautiful than now

I never looked to my heart ?til I looked in her eyes
I never looked at the world ?til I gazed to the skies

But now that she?s back in front of me
I see what before I couldn?t see
The moon and the stars of which I dream
Could be right in front of me

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Sometimes friendships blossom into romance ... other times, one half of a friendship wants it to blossom into a romnace while the other half is completely unaware.

This is a song I wrote about a girl who has always been a great friend. We toyed with they idea of dating, but the thought was short-lived and she wasn't interested in pursuing a relationship, though i was. This song goes through my feelings when I was finally starting to cope with the fact that it was never gonna happen.

Over Whispering Water

I try and I try to convince myself
That I don?t want to know what I know that I already know
And I try and I try to convince myself
That I don?t want to go where I know that I?ve already gone

But I see the way that she smiles at me
And I see how beautiful she can be
And I hear the words when she speaks to me
Like the wind ? like the wind over whispering water

I try and I try to convince myself
That she needs me though I see that she can?t seem to see me
And I try and I try to convince myself
That I don?t need her though I?m sure that I can?t live without her

But I see the way that she smiles at me
And I see how beautiful she can be
And I hear the words when she speaks to me
Like the wind ? like the wind over whispering water

I?ve tried and I tried to convince myself
That I don?t want to know what I know that I already know